the break is over

So I haven't been here in a while. I was taking a break & hiding from the world for a bit. But now I am back & I have lots to talk about. Lets see where to start...

Maybe I should start with the newest star in the family, yup that would be Baby Hayden. When I last saw him, at Christmas, he was almost sitting up by himself. What a smart kid. Next thing you know he will be walking & talking back to his parents. So I think that is time for a picture of this wonderful baby.



This was just before christmas while I was babysitting. Mommy & Daddy went out for dinner with some friends that they hadnt see for a while. You cant really tell here, but Hayden is a redhead. So freaking cute. By the way, everyone spoiled Hayden this Christmas.

Lets see what else is happening right now. I quit my linen job & I am now working in the head office for Visions. I am in A/R (Accounts Receivable). Its a lot of work, but I am enjoying it, well other then the stupid filing, but that is part of the job.

We are moving out of downtown. We have had enough. Its time to go. We looked at a place just off of Southland & we love it. I have my fingers crossed, that we will get it. If we get it I will take lots of picture so that everyone can see where we are moving to. Everyone keep your fingers crossed for us.

I think that it might be picture time again... lets see who will it be??? hmmm, let me think... hmm, I will have to get more pictures of my family, not just Hayden. But he is so cute & such a sweet little boy... ok, you talked me into it, more Hayden

Well that is my 50 cents for now.

For those of you that did not know, my mother was in the hospital. She was very sick, well that is kind of obvious. She was fighting 2 kinds of cancer, and she lost the battle last night.

I still do not know what to do. I had mixed emotions about it. We had a rocky friendship, but at the end, I think that we truly did become friends. I would sit in her room & I watched as she was struggling to breath & I think that I even watched her slip into coma. I am not sure. But I was there when she wouldn’t even wake up when the nurses were talking to her.

I will miss her so much. Again my heart is broken. I will be meeting with my brothers & sisters to figure out what we need to do & when it needs to be done.

Until next time…

Sly

No time to think

I got a call from my brother last night. I was dumb-founded. He & my girl-firend-in-law finaly managed to get my mom to the hospital. He told me that the doctors are saying anywhere from 24 hours to 2 weeks. As you could have guessed I was freaked. I didnt know what to say, or how to act. I knew that I had to go to the hospital & see her.

My brother told me that it looks like she has aged 10-15 years, but I guess that is what 2 different types of cancer & some other illness will do to you. This has been one of the worst years.

There is so much that I need to get out, but right now I have to get ready for work. I'll update later tonight

Sly

I know, I know, I should update more often...

So Hayden Danniel was born on July 2, 2006. He is an angle send to this family. I think that I will post some pictures that I have of him. Enjoy...

Crap... blogger is not playing nicely. I can not post pics. I'll have to try later. Hmm it might be time for another children's bed time story... Well I will have to try to think of something.

See ya later,
Sly

She will be missed

Dave's mom has passed away, in the last 24 hours. We are in shell shock right now. It seems to be sinking in, but I still dont know what to do yet. This is the first time I have had to deal with this. I am trying to be strong for Dave.

We fly out tomorrow morning & we will hopeful have everything done with in the week. If we are not done, I will be back next weekend & Dave will be back when he is done. Everything can change in a blink of an eye.

We were talking to her on Sunday & making plans to fly her out here. I just hope & pray that she was not afraid, or in pain. My heart is breaking as I write this. I just hope that I can hold it together for Dave.

Well there are things that need to be done before we leave tomorrow...

Sonya

My family growing pains & all

I know, I know, I dont write here as much as I used to. I just dont know what to say some times. I want to write about everything & I cant think of the words. Well I will do the thing that I always do when trying to write, I'll put the Ipod on & just let my fingers do the walking.

So lets see where to start... ?

How about work? I am working on a contract that is a temp-to-perm. I am loving it. I have to say that working with adults is so nice. It just feels so much better. There is none of the high school drama that seem to be happening at the last place. I have taken a somewhat mental count of the age of the office that I work in. I think that the average is about 46. I am not even average in this office. If it wasnt for S & I, average would be 52-ish.

D is so funny, I went into her office for the first contract with them & asked her how they were planning on using me. She said that she would have to see. I said with the big puppy eyes "I don't want to go... I want to stay here..." She started to laugh & said that I was one of the reasons she never had kids. I have since learnt that she only says that to people that she likes. This is a good thing. D was going to have me working 24-30 hours a week for the first little bit & then S pointed out that if D might want to use me as a floater, so that when she (being S, I know its a bit of a round about kind of story... hehehe) get pregnant they will have someone that is fully trained to step in & then will not be any going pains...

M also said that she & I will have to sit together before August so that I can learn how to do her possition. She is the A/R lead, not that there are any titles back where we sit. Now I know that some of you are saying lots of time, but May I will only be able to sit at my desk for 1 weeks. Let me show you what I mean...

The next 2 weeks I will be A/P then back to A/R for 1 week, then the week after that I will be Reception. So that is what my month looks like at work. I am going to try to do A/R in between. Now that I have been able to get into every last one of my accounts I dont want them to fall behind again. Some of them were so bad, I was able to get some of the accounts that are known for not paying to pay. I have a bit of a feeling that M will not want to let me float when it comes time for it. Well at least I will take my binders with me, which ever desk I work from.

Now on to the Mom's

I have come to terms with my mom's illness & lack of treatment. I am still to scared to see her right now. There are a lot of hurt feelings between the two of us. We both get so pig-headed sometimes. Once we have made up our minds you might as well try moving a mountain, because that is what we both become. I want to see her, but the fear is that I will see her & then start yelling at her about being sick, and not getting any help. Or that we will just start butting heads about things in the past, things that can not be changed. I have tried to forgivr & forget, as the saying goes, but I get hung up about some of the thing that we both verbal throw at each other. Things that no human ears should ever have heard, or human mouths should have ever said. I am still sad about her health. I dont want her to suffer... but you know maybe it will be easier for her. If you fight Cancer you can beat it, but it takes everything out of you & maybe mom is just to tired to fight anymore. I can't be sure.

On to Dave's mom:

She went in for her double bypass surgery on April 02. She was finally released on April 28. She spent the whole month in one hospital or another. The surgery went well, the recovery didnt go so well. The docs thought that it would be a week in the St. John hospital & then 1 or 2 weeks in Oromocto Hospital. Well her kiddneys weren responding well & she had to stay in St. John until they could figure out what was happening with her body. There were a day away from a procedure & then her kiddneys started to work again. Then about a week later her blood pressure dropped so much that they were worried about her. So they had to try to figure out what caused it to drop so much. But it returned to normal. She is now out of the hospital & at a girlfriends place. She will not be able too return home for a month or so. But she made it through the surgery & so far everything is ok. We have our fingers crossed.

I have some great news... Terry my best friend had her baby girl. Her name is Emma Grace. She is so cute & so tiny. I am glad for Terry that she was so small. But she is growing like a weed & getting bigger everyday. She is so cute. Emma has a tiny bit of hair right on top, but when I saw her last, both Terry & I couldnt decide what colour eyes she had. Sometimes they look like they will be grey & sometimes her eyes looked brown. Who knows, She will be a month old soon... So tiny & so cute.

I cant wait until Helen has the family's first baby in a long time. She is having a boy in June. I am so excited for them. Hurry up June, get here. Chris has done up the nursery & it looks great. I was just over there not too long ago. The nursery is done in green & cream, with little bits of blue. It looks so amazing in there. I will have to ask Chris to help me when I finally need a nursery. I cant wait to meet the newest member of our family...

Well the is my 50 cents worth...

Sly

So my lasy post was a bit depressing. I have had a week to think about everything. I still do not know how to help my mother. I still dont know what needs to be done to make her see that she will live a lot longer if she would just have the freaking surgery. My fear is that she will be in pain & she will not ask for help, or it will be too late to help.

So on to another subject, my hip... yes the bugger is acting up a bit again. There is no rhym or reason for the flair up, but if I am careful today & tomorrow I should be ok. I think that it might have just flaired because I was sitting crossed legged again. I know that this is the root of all evil, but I have been sitting like that since I was old enough to sit by-myself. I have to try to figure out a way to re-train my brain & limb while sitting.

Dave has had the last week off. He is well rested. We have been watching a lot of the Olympic games. I am so impressed that the Canadians are doing so well. At last count we are at 13 medal. I love the cross country skiing, but I havent really seem that many races. The short track speed skating has been very exciting. The curling has been an up & down roller coster. The shots that are made are so amazing, & the shots that are missed, are only missed by 1/2 an mm, if that. But that is the way the game is.

We have heard about Dave's mom's health. She needs double bypass surgery, and maybe valve repair. By she has a chet cold right now, so if she gets the call about the date of the surgery & she still has a cold, the doc will not operate on her. God only knows how long she would have to wait. So we are keeping our fingers crossed that she is able to shake her cold quickly.

Now aobut me... Lets see... not a lot to report. The place that I am working this contract will drive me to either drinking, or pulling my hair out. I am not liking either of those options. I am so used to having so much work, that I do not get any down time. That there is always something for me to work on. By this place I am only answering phones & booking appointments. I have to tell you that I am not liking this contract right now. I want it to end & I want to work somewhere else. Who knows, I might be able to get on with CL. There I could have lots to do, & I wouldnt be bored & wanting to pull out my hair.

well that is my 50 cents...

So there is a lot of stress right now

I have received some very hard news. My mom is sick with cancer of the liver. I am very sad & I dont really know what to say about this. There are so many things that I want to say & do. I have so many feelings running wild right now.

We have been told that she could recover well with surgery, but she is not going to take that option. I dont know what to do, I want to drag her to the doctors (kicking & screaming if I have to), but I know that she will not go. I have mixed feelings. I dont want her to be ill & I her to stick around a lot longer. I know that we do not always see eye -to-eye, but I dont want her to go. There are so many things that she has left to do. I want to be so seflish & made her see that she needs to go to the doctor. But she thinks because she is not feeling sock, then she is not sick.

I seem to have lost my thread of thought, so that will be it for this post. I'll write again in a couple of days...

that is my 50 cents worth...

I'm back from vacation

Sorry I haven't posted for a while. Life just seems to get in the way some times.

The plane takes off as scheduled. We were on a brand new WestJet plane, so they did not have any of the stalelite TV installed yet. Shit, just our luck. Well I have a book, Dave has the diskman. The flight was uneventful (which is a good thing) we both were able to fall asleep for a while. We landed in Hamilton. We got off the plane, go inside the next departures area sat for about 10 minutes & then it was time to board the plane. I love how quick the day was going so far. We get right back on to the plane that we had just gotten off. We fly into Moncton get our bags & head off to the car rental place.

I gave him my credit card (which shall remain nameless for now) he runs it through & says that its expired. Crap... I try the other one & I didnt have enough space on the card. I call the expired company first I explain what has happened & I am told that they will need to get a supervisor. Great get me someone who can help me. I explain to the "supervisor" what has happened & she puts me on hold. a couple of seconds later she picks up the line & says that she needs to get a "superviors". Well what the hell was she??? Again I explane everything for the 3rd time. and I am told that I will need to talk to another "supervisor" now I am getting really angry, why do I need to talk to 3 supervisors & explain this 4 times... The last one asked me all kinds of questions, DoB, security number on back of card, mother's maidne name, what kind of payments I make, if I had done any advanced cash transactions... this kind of thing, almost what are you wearing. Then I get sorry, the computer has deactivated your card (I know that you toad, that is why I am calling...) and because you have not activated your new one there is nothing that we can do to help you. Shit... I call my other card & I get you have to make a payment on this card before we can give you a approval number. I ask how long it will take to process the payment they said right away. I asked if there was some way that they could just release the funds & I would go to the bank to make a payment... they were no help. We fianlly just get on the MTS (i can't remember what that stands for) and get into Fredericton. We take a taxi to Dave's mom's place & order in pizza. the rest of the vacation was great.

that is my 50 cents worth. talk to you later.

it's Vacation time again

Just thought that I would post before we fly off tomorrow morning. I can't wait. We have been working hard trying to get everything ready for this trip.

I'm drinking Noe Citron right now, so if I stop making sence you will know why.

I think that I have to go to bed now...

That's my 50 cents. Talk to you when we get back from vacation.